I wasn't going to post anything today but I think maybe if I get these thoughts out I will feel better.
I am overwhelmed. Here is my list of why:
1. Purim-shaloch manos. I have the idea of what to give out and it is simple but just actually implementing it makes me want to crawl in bed under the covers and not come out.
2. I think my kids don't have school next Wednesday and I just realized it last night. What am I going to do with them? Who is going to watch them?
3. I need to find a babysitter for baby M and Little T when my regular babysitter has a baby which is probably happening in 2 weeks.
4. Pesach is rapidly approaching and my house is a disaster area! How will I ever get it ready in time? I can barely cook, do laundry, and wash dishes on a regular basis. I will probably have to call in some reinforcements.
I know there are more items for this list but these are the biggies. I have been living in denial about the babysitter situation and it is not pleasant to leave that comfy fantasy place (in my head) where everything in my life always goes smoothly!
I am overwhelmed. Here is my list of why:
1. Purim-shaloch manos. I have the idea of what to give out and it is simple but just actually implementing it makes me want to crawl in bed under the covers and not come out.
2. I think my kids don't have school next Wednesday and I just realized it last night. What am I going to do with them? Who is going to watch them?
3. I need to find a babysitter for baby M and Little T when my regular babysitter has a baby which is probably happening in 2 weeks.
4. Pesach is rapidly approaching and my house is a disaster area! How will I ever get it ready in time? I can barely cook, do laundry, and wash dishes on a regular basis. I will probably have to call in some reinforcements.
I know there are more items for this list but these are the biggies. I have been living in denial about the babysitter situation and it is not pleasant to leave that comfy fantasy place (in my head) where everything in my life always goes smoothly!
Other factors contributing to my overwhelmed state of being:
Lately, I have been feeling anxious about things I have said or done. One of the things contributing to my anxiety is leaving comments on other people's blogs. I worry that I haven't said the "right" thing. Or that it can be misconstrued. The computer is such an impersonal and imperfect way to communicate-I find difficult to convey tone and meaning. Part of the reason I worry is that I don't want to offend anyone, in real life I usually only share strong opinions with people who know me well. And I am new to this and worry that sometimes people don't understand what I mean. Does anyone else ever feel this?
Or am I crazy?
It's ok, you can tell me. I can take it.
6 comments:
I have anxiety about ALL OF THOSE SAME THINGS!!
what's up with having shushan purim off, that's ridiculous.
we need babysitters, argh
i hate shaloch monos
i also am afraid of putting my foot in my mouth all the time becuase i usually do.
great post
Rach,
Thanks for your support you always make me feel better!
I seriously have the darn biggest mouth and shoot it off all the time.
It happens.
And pesach? AAAAACCCCCKKKKKKKKK!
if it makes you feel any better, youve never insulted me!!!! and btw i feel sort of sick thinking about the next month...purim, right into pesach...im ready for May
well being that half the blogs I leave comments on do not return the favor, i am pretty sure I have offended someone. But I know my truth, it is never my intention to offend anyone, so how they perceive it, is out of my hands.
Elisha take a deep breathe, make your list and take one project at a time. What gets done, gets done and the rest goes by the way side. Every year you say the same thing about Passover and you always manage to do fine.
You need to stop worrying about your comments you leave on the blogs - they are fine and if you are that upset then stop doing comments. However, you know you are enjoying writing the blog (your writing is a-maz-ing as Rabbi says) and it is relieving your internal stress.
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